I want to go back to my first love.

So lately I've been thinking. Where am I in my walk? I know I've been doing the right things, but have I been growing or am I just comfortable where I am at, feeling stagnant? I realized that I'm not giving enough. It's not that my faith is slipping, but it's just that it's not moving forward. So now I've realized that I have to get back on track. I want to go back to my first love. I want that feeling of joy & excitment when I first accepted Him into my heart. That feeling where you're not really sure of it, but you took the risk anyways. That feeling of faith & trust. & knowing that His promises fulfill & you always have that peace inside of you. I want that feeling again. Where I can careless about the world & have that close relationship with my God. I just remember those days where my fire was so drastically burning. But I know now, that I've known him longer, my life is going to be tested. Before he was the one who would welcome me, because I was new. Now it's my duty to keep welcoming Him to remind Him that I still need Him. && I want everyone to see that. My friends, my family, everyone. I'm sorry if I have portrayed someone who you didn't expect me to be. But it's never too late & this time around, I want to make things better.

A few days ago my sister had this trippy dream. Ask me about it later. It was a dream for her, but it spoke to me as well. Because it made me think, do I really deserve that looking at where I am at right now? I mean of course I'd love to take that route, but when you're feeling uncertain then there's something wrong.

I don't only want this for me. Everday I pray that my friends & family find this special love as well. I just want to share this to everyone & allow you to make Him the foundation fo your life. Honestly, once you're sure of this & have Him in your heart, no doubt life is so much clearer & capable to endure.

Anyways I'm just glad for that wake up call. Now that all the prophecies are being fulfilled & so many things that were mentioned in the Bible are happening in this world, it only means one thing. The time is near & He's coming soon. & before He comes I want to make sure I'm ready. Not by the good deeds, the kind acts, avoidance of sin, but by rekindiling and making strong the relationship I had with Him. Just when you think He closed the door on you, He never did. He was just waiting for you to take the first step & come in. Therefore, we should all go back to our first Love. (: