Early Morning

So I woke up extra early this morning. I woke up at 8?! I tried going back to sleep but I couldn't. I had a lot on my mind & it just murdered me. So I got advice from a few friends. I am so thankful for them because they give me both sides to understand. At first it really bugged me to see that. Cause that's what I didn't understand. Like how can you do that when you're already talking to someone right? But then like he said "it's just a picture" So I guess. If that's the case then so be it.I don't want no excuses. I don't want no cover-ups. I just want to know wassup so I don't waste my time. & I don't want it to be an issue that's passed up. If we have to talk, then we have to talk. We can't just pass it by & hope things get better over time. It ain't no fairytale like that. I just don't want to end up looking like a fool! I know of his past, but I trust, like he said that he's changed. && maybe it's just him to be super nice to girls. But the thing is yeah, I'm over it. I mean I still get that ugly feeling inside every time I see the picture. But he's still pursuing me so that means that he does have feelings for me, right? I'm just afraid it might happen to me again. I got screwed over once already && I don't want that. Nobody wants that. That's why this time around I'm just praying for the truth. If whatever he's saying is true then great, that's what I want. && If not I'll be sure to find out, & we'll just see where it goes from there. As for now, like I've always been, I'll just be optimistic & think of the better things in life & the positive outcomes. Cause if it isn't this, then there's something so much better. & I'll find mine.